Moon,
I adore when you ask for my blood.
Have it.  Trade.
You know what I’ve been asking for and tonight, you will hear me louder. 
I am yours.

Moon,
I adore when you ask for my blood.
Have it. Trade.
You know what I’ve been asking for and tonight, you will hear me louder.
I am yours.


PISS ON THIS!

i dislike it when people piss on me in public, and then turn around and refuse to piss on me in private.

Yo! If you are gonna piss on me in public, please do so in private, so I can feel the love.

Simultaneously, if you piss on me in private, I don’t always need you to piss on me in public, cuz I obviously know how you feel. ;)


when you’re underemployed, FOMO is that much more annoying.


#awkward immigrant moments

maybe my resistance to pop culture is that its not mine. here is a picture of me feeling awkward that i didn’t know the words to the popular “hip-hop” song that mostly erryone in the room seemed to know. then the chorus came along. and i knew it for a brief second, with out connection the way others in the room seemed to understand it.

and then i didn’t know the words again and didn’t really know the artist. I think i led a sheltered immigrant life - i blame worrisome overprotective mom. unless i searched for it, seeked out pop culture, it wasn’t gonna get into my home (besides the tv).  but still, i had to learn so many other codes to pass, so they didn’t know i wasn’t from here. so i wouldn’t be found out. so i could pass.



When white ppl say they throw shade. i’s like: no, you can’t throw shade. youre white. you can throw power and your white supremacist ways. you can be shady. but thats about it. 


A Token’s Lament

earthillusion:

**This piece is for people of color, not for teaching white people, rather it is a framing.  I just have no more words for debating on whether or not reality is real.  For me, talking to other poc actually has value, it is the beginnings to securing a futurity not based on ongoing relation with white supremacy.  This is for the people of color who still don’t understand, or don’t want to understand why they can’t blindly trust white people and accept their good intentions without staying ready to call their behavior into question when it deviates into alignment and maintenance of white supremacy.  For the people of color who refuse, this is an example of the behavior you normalize, collude with, reinforce, intentionally or not.      

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This white queer person is referring to a job I applied for at his clinic, St. James Infirmary, which I was not selected for.  I had disclosed to several of my qtpoc contacts about the funky decision making that went down and somehow it got back to him “through the grapevine.” 

The story is the clinic was hiring for two positions during July: Harm Reduction Coordinator (which I applied for, upon my friend’s suggestion) and an admin assistant.  Neither went to a person of color, not even the admin assistant.  I learned this upon following up with this friend over the phone about why I was determined as “not a good fit” for the job.  Now he is “open to any feedback” which translates as

“Please explain to me why we made the wrong decision despite me/us having no intention of taking your feedback (ie knowledge and experience as a black queer person) seriously in terms of self reflection, self transformation, or moves to take action and address/redress the harm done because as far as I’m concerned no harm was done. I’m a/your white queer ally, and if you can’t see that you’re emotional and/or ungrateful.”

You can tell he already knows that much as he “understands if I don’t want to talk.” He knows that most white people would not even care to engage me for “feedback”’, but he performs as if he is any better.  He seems to feel he is a non oppressive white person - an ally.   

So of course I don’t respond to that shit.  It’s below basic, like in the bomb shelter beneath basic’s basement.  However, white people, even the supposed “ally”, are entitled to getting their emotional needs met and their innocence in/from a system of domination confirmed (ie validate me as a good white person ally, NOW!), which is done by draining the energy (time, attention, capacity, affection) of people of color to feed their emotional delusions while refusing to relinquish positions of authority inextricably tied to and reinforcing systems of extreme domination and violence. 

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MNG iridescent bag 7x3.5x2 from bag to end of chain 23.5in $15


1st world problems.
I can’t possibly take all these shoes to NY!

1st world problems.
I can’t possibly take all these shoes to NY!


moving from this

You came into my room. And you missed me and I felt it.  We got into bed to lay together.  I remember being so close. I could see the details of your skin. Slowly breathing you in. Feeling my way up your shoulder, nearing your chest and then your neck with my face.  My cheek felt the soft coarseness of your facial hair.  Finally we consented to a kiss.  Your small lips, as I remember them, turned into big lips embracing. (I still don’t know how you work those small lips to make me feel embraced by them, but you do and is amazing.)  The warmth of your body emanating through that kiss.  Still even in dreams makes me feel like I’m tripping on mushrooms.  Then I moved over you. over your body.  our legs doing those things they do with familiarity.  Pressing, finding those spots that make us moan for more desire.  somehow you were naked.  We ended our embrace, you said something implying how wet and nasty you were for me. I looked down to see btwn your legs glistening in wet cum.